Fathom (Alternate Version)

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Fathom (Alternate Version)

By Ryan Johnston

This bed is noiseless, and still

Calming me, as we sink slowly

Like feather ships, to the bottom of this sleep

These blankets that you kicked

Onto the open bedroom floor

Are like frozen ocean waves

Painted in a dream

Your memory blows in 

Like a winter snowdrift

It holds me in a cold embrace

In the silent air this morning 

Latching on with an icy grip

Piling high inside my mind

With all of the broken things

That I always hoped to fix

The cost for going back to sleep

In this hailstorm of sheep

Is counting only nightmares

That used to be good dreams

The sun has gone away

Diving over the edge

Over the steep mountain railing

Of these western states we lived

And if she could return

If she could find her way back again

Rising from the loneliness of the sea, 

Climbing into the Atlantic skyline

Filling up my empty veins

And the stasis in my head

Like a heartbeat tidal wave

A key on a kite string

The sapphire sky you left

Is overflowing ruby red

Draining from my heart

Like a crimson waterfall

Turning every star into mars

Sinking constellations like oxygen ships

Capsized in collapsed lungs

Devastated from restricted breath

In the rapture of the moment you left

And the world I’ve been seeing 

Has been upside down ever since

Whatever it was that died

We bury alongside what it was,

That it brought so much life

The wind and rain will cover up the blood

They say time heals, but it never really does

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Sol Solis

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Sol Solis - By Moving Mountains

Sol  Solis

By Moving Mountains

Take your hands away, 

From your face, so I can see

Everything you are

And everything you used to be

You used to be, to me,

Something you don't want to be. I know you

You're like the sun, and I am earth, together we're one

And someday, your fire will die

And I'll grow cold, without sunlight

And I will freeze, baby

I will die, I'll freeze, I'll die for you

Because things, they always die

Just give it time. they always die

And we, someday we'll see, 

Our love will shine. Our love will shine

Your love won't fade darling

Lover I cannot do this alone

Things like these are better off untold

Someday the sun will die, and I'll grow cold

I hope someday,  your love finds its way home

Fathom

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Fathom

By Ryan Johnston

This bed is noiseless, and still

Calming me, as we sink slowly

Like feather ships, to the bottom of this sleep

These blankets that you kicked

Onto the open bedroom floor

Are like frozen ocean waves

Painted in a dream

Your memory blows in 

Like a winter snowdrift

It holds me in a cold embrace

In the silent air this morning 

Latching on with an icy grip

Piling high inside my mind

With all of the broken things

That I always hoped to fix

The cost for going back to sleep

In this hailstorm of sheep

Is counting only nightmares

That used to be good dreams

The sun has gone away

Diving over the edge

Over the steep mountain railing

Of these western states we lived

And if she could return

If she could find her way back again

Rising from the loneliness of the sea, 

Climbing into the Atlantic skyline

Filling up my empty veins

And the stasis in my head

Like a heartbeat tidal wave

A key on a kite string

The sapphire sky you left

Is overflowing ruby red

Draining from my heart

Like a crimson waterfall

Turning every star into mars

Sinking constellations like oxygen ships

Capsized in collapsed lungs

Devastated from restricted breath

In the rapture of the moment you left

And the world I've been seeing 

Has been upside down ever since

Whatever it was that died

We bury alongside what it was,

That it brought so much life

The wind and rain will cover up the blood

They say time heals, but it never really does

Disintegration

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Disintegration - By The Cure

Disintegration
By The Cure

Oh I miss the kiss of treachery, 

The shameless kiss of vanity 

The soft, and the black, and the velvety 

Up tight, against the side of me 

And mouth, and eyes, and heart all bleed 

And run in thickening streams of greed 

As bit by bit, it starts the need 

To just let go, my party piece

Oh I miss the kiss of treachery 

The aching kiss before I feed

The stench of a love for a younger meat 

And the sound that it makes, when it cuts in deep 

The holding up on bended knees

The addiction of duplicities 

As bit by bit, it starts the need, 

To just let go, my party piece

But I never said I would stay to the end

So I leave you with babies, and hoping for frequency

Screaming like this, in the hope of the secrecy

Screaming me, over, and over, and over, 

I leave you with photographs, pictures of trickery

Stains on the carpet, and stains on the scenery

Songs about happiness, murmured in dreams

When we, both of us, knew 

How the ending would be...

So it's all come back round to breaking apart again 

Breaking apart, like I'm made up of glass again

Making it up, behind my back again 

Holding my breath, for the fear of sleep again

Holding it up, behind my head again 

Cut in deep, to the heart of the bone again

Round, and round, and round, and it's coming apart again

Over, and over, and over

Now that I know that I'm breaking to pieces 

I'll pull out my heart, and I'll feed it to anyone

Crying for sympathy, crocodile cry, for the love of the crowd 

And the three cheers from everyone 

Dropping through sky, through the glass of the roof 

Through the roof of your mouth, through the mouth of your eye 

Through the eye of the needle, it's easier for me 

To get closer to heaven, than ever feel whole again

I never said I would stay to the end 

I knew I would leave you with babies, and everything

Screaming like this, in the hole of sincerity

Screaming me, over, and over, and over 

I leave you with photographs, pictures of trickery

Stains on the carpet, and stains on the memory 

Songs about happiness, murmured in dreams 

When we, both of us, knew

How the end, always is...

How the end, always is...

Jack Of All Trades

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Jack Of All Trades - By Hot Water Music

Jack Of All Trades 

By Hot Water Music

Give me a reason not to lash out, 
Because I don't see much reason now 
I want to banish frauds, slay unruly sods
Since false idol gods, have nothing figured out 

Nothing at all 

So you've got a tale to tell?

Well how about something real? 

Feel free and stifle someone

Go on and belittle someone as well

Or but fucker yeah you'll get yours 

Or but fucker yeah you'll get yours 

So fill up your pockets, and watch them swell

You could be no one

An inconsiderate bastard son

Kiss your smile goodbye

Kiss it all goodbye

Gem State

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Gem State

By Ryan Johnston

Too far away, and so unclear

It’s hard to believe

It was ever, even there

But these scars I can’t see

Remind me of everything 

I wish I could just forget

Laid to rest when you left town

These words still sleep underground

At night, I dig around

And resurrect the alphabet, with my pen

But some things are best

Left alone, and dead

And our eyes would meet, in between

The oxygen, that I found hard to breathe

We could have landed so many different ways

I guess on our feet, won’t be one of them

And these unholy lines

These plain white sheets

A body of words, buried underneath

Everything that I conveyed

I tried so hard just to bring you, to me

As I fill in the blanks, I can only guess

To what you really meant, if anything

I’m just not sure what to throw away 

Or what to keep

Exhuming the decaying remains

Of everything we used to be

When all we ever had is gone, and dead

It only leaves more mystery

To what lived inside your head

Embalming the memories

Prolongs the misery

All you love, that you won’t see again

And it just wont rest in peace

You traded truth for air

And a semester spent 

In the Gem State, with former friends

I’d rather choke to death

On diamond coated razor blades

Than live through that again

And our eyes would meet, in between

The oxygen, that I found hard to breathe

You land in me so many different ways

Now we’re burning to death

I guess we overshot the runway

You’re the queen of hearts, 

Princess to the stars

In the kingdom of the clouds, 

They made you into a golden harp

You play on demand, truth in every verse

But I am still humming the tune

Of the sweetest lies my ears have ever heard

And how are things, in your new town?

How is my old best friend?

Did he walk on water?

Turn coal into diamond rings?

Or did he fall off his beanstalk?

In a tragic accident

Chasing after things he’ll never understand

I would rather choke to death

On the ashes of this end

Than burn this way again

Lowlight

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Lowlight - By Time Spent Driving

Lowlight 

By Time Spent Driving


Outside, I can see your breath

But you're not there, and mine is hardly left.
Twilight, feels the morning press
Above, every star, is seamed with your duress

Inside, I can hear each step

But they're not yours, a sleepless dream at best

As black skies, flow to auburn reds

To wake the night and of me what is left

If I don't want to see you, it's because it hurts too much

All this time spent wondering if I was just a crutch

Waiting for the day to kill this night, 

And carry with it you away forever


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Flight 89 (North American)

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Flight 89 (North American) - By Hot Rod Circuit

Flight 89 (North American)
By Hot Rod Circuit 

It's been a long time 

Since I've been flight 89, North American

And it feels like the oceans caving in

Can't wait to get back on the ground, again

You gave up, and they sucked you in

And I scream out,

My problems are behind me

And I just can't find the words to say

That I'm leaving

It's been a long time 

Since I've been flight 89, North American

And it feels like the oceans caving in

What a fine time, it has been

Waiting by the coastline, for my ship to come in

You only get what you put in

Can't wait to get back on the ground, again

You gave up, and they sucked you in

And I scream out 

My problems are behind me

And I just can't find the words to say

That I'm leaving

And it feels like 

The burdens are too heavy

And I just can't find the words to say

That I'm leaving

Nothing Is What It Seems (Without You)

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Nothing Is What It Seems (Without You) - By Saosin

Nothing Is What It Seems (Without You)

By Saosin

You look like you’re letting go

I know that you won’t call on me

You look like you’re letting go

I know what my instincts are telling me

And you’re fading out

It’s so hard without you

This wasn’t my fault

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you

This is all that I remember before you changed

You’re stuck in the dream with next to nothing

I’m all alone and nothings what it seems

Without you next to me

Sometimes it feels like home

So safe in the shade

But when the summer fades

There’s always something missing

And now that I’m on my own

I know why you just

Just couldn’t stop

And why you had to leave

It’s so hard, without you

This wasn’t my fault

Tell me how am I supposed to live without you

This is all that I remember before you changed

You’re stuck in the dream with next to nothing

I’m all alone and nothings what it seems

Without you next to me

I never imagined I would feel so lost

I never imagined it would be so hard

I never imagined I would feel so lost

I never imagined this would be so hard

In Fear And Faith

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In Fear And Faith - By Circa Survive

In Fear And Faith

By Circa Survive


Can we last through the winter?
The water's starting to freeze.

The only one who remembers

Taking the wrong step, falling in front of me.

This body's already aging.

These nights are all ready long.

And if I last through the winter,

I swear to you now, I won't call.


Congratulations, go home now.


Will we last through the winter?
Will we make it to see?
I never wanted a partner and I never loved you,
Now you are free to leave.
This heart is already frozen,
I can't remember the fall.
And if I last through the winter,
I swear to you now, I won't call.

Congratulations, go home now.

It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.

Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.

It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.

Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.

It must be buried under the heart

That makes this pace consistent.
You'll find it torn, that gate's been opened?
I've been wondering if you've been real with us.
It's too late


It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.
Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.
It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.
Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.


It's start, stop and go 
You've been dying for, 
You've been dying for.


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See You In Hell

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See You In Hell - By Small Brown Bike

See You In Hell

By Small Brown Bike

I'll take Sunday night 

With a blanket over this old, dark house

An occasional ruffle, 

But nothing like you, 

Or even this memory of you

Do you save our pictures, like I do?

Home is where you die

We we're like a lullaby

You hit like a hammer now

You used to lean into me

Now you stand away

Those wheels just push right by now

Just a few feet from my life

If I leaned into their mess

I'd see you in hell, see you in hell

You looked straight at me,

Then laughed and said so honestly,

"You're so dead now"

As I thought to myself, "Is that really true?"

Because I killed you in my head

You can too 

There's no second chance

Home is where you die

We we're like a lullaby

You hit like a hammer now

You used to lean into me

Now you stand away

Those wheels just push right by now

Just a few feet from my life

If I leaned into their mess

I'd see you in hell, see you in hell

Home is where you'll die

There's no second chance

Mirror

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Mirror

By Sylvia Plath

I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.

What ever you see I swallow immediately

Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike.

I am not cruel, only truthful—-

The eye of a little god, four-cornered.

Most of the time I meditate on the opposite wall.

It is pink, with speckles. I have looked at it so long

I think it is a part of my heart. But it flickers.

Faces and darkness separate us over and over.

Now I am a lake. A woman bends over me,

Searching my reaches for what she really is.

Then she turns to those liars, the candles or the moon.

I see her back, and reflect it faithfully.

She rewards me with tears and an agitation of hands.

I am important to her. She comes and goes.

Each morning it is her face that replaces the darkness.

In me she has drowned a young girl, and in me an old woman

Rises toward her day after day, like a terrible fish.

Cicada

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Cicada

By Ryan Johnston

It's never early

Never in the day

When the sun,

Brilliant with it's touch

Is drifting through the cracks

Of shapes, asleep in front

It's too late

To think about

It's too late to

Wrap myself in this

In the night

Guiltless with it's brush

Covering what we could always see

When all the lights were on

And I know

Tomorrow's up to me

It's in me still

Searching for that peace

Imagination bleeds

Raining over sleep

Pouring like an ocean

Running off into space

When you're not here

To ground me

Missing things

After letting go

Missing more than you know

Connect in dreams

I still see you

With all the lights on

Embracing change

Like poison in my veins

Would embrace my heart

Wishing you could know

You distill my blood

Connect in dreams

I still see you

Keep the lights on

Stay with me, don't let go

This ending plays over

With the lights out

I'll still be waiting

Wishing you could know

You're sewn into my soul.

Plain Air

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Plain Air

By Ryan Johnston

Well you got away from here

From where the sun rises the same

Just like it did, last year

Well, you got away from me

And all the evil things

That I know, I just had to be

Standing in the hallway

Watch you get ready for the day

I don’t know where I’ve been

But I know, that I’m ready for you 

Mortuary parking lots, and purple backdrops

Empty notebook page, Like a plain white gauze

My heart inside my hand, this pen is a just an I.V. 

That someone pulled out

You say you understand me, more than I think

That one day I’ll know, that this just had to be

You say you love me, but you just have to leave

And you know someday, I’ll do great things

When you float around my eyes

The perfect mixture of vapour and air

And I’m burning alive, inside

I know, that I’m already there

Yeah, I’m already there

You say you understand me, more than I think

And know one knows you, better than me

You say you love me, but you just need something new

And you know one day. I’ll find someone much better than you

Standing in the empty hallway

Those times are still there, somewhere

The vapour burned itself into thin air

And you start your day, someplace else

Empty journals fill, 

When the memories you kill, bleed out

A crime scene, nobody ever found

We turn ourselves in, with the words we let out

Or hide behind the meaning, to cover up our tracks

Either way, the feeling,

It just stains